ruff and I don't mean what a dog says.

Life is ruff... Everyday is changing and sometimes I can't control it and I feel like a spinning top. Why is change so hard for me? I feel like most can flow like a river and love ever rock it passes. Me I always want to stop and enjoy the rocks accept for.. Ya can't, things are always moving. I am so tired of being that one that ruins things for myself all because I can't let myself be happy or go with the flow. Hopefully this new SAM-e that I am taking will help me out and possibly feel under control. Woo life's ruff, take a SAM-e!